21

With my 21st birthday coming up in a couple of weeks I have been reminiscing I guess you could say. I have become very sure and okay with myself recently. Okay with my flaws. 

Do I get mad? Yes. 

Do I get angry? Yes. 

Do I say things I shouldn’t? Yes. 

Can I be hurtful? Yes. 

Am I insecure? Most days. 

Do I struggle with anxiety? Yes. A lot. 

Am I trying? Heck yes!! 

In this past year I have learned SO much about myself, interacting with people, and being a wife. I’ve learned patience, how to love, how to be loved.. etc. 

I am grateful to have had my lovley husband by my side through it all pushing me and showing me what I can be. He has made me feel unconditionally loved for the first time In so so long. And my family (both) have been so supportive and doing all they can. 

This year was filled with many hard lessons, ups and downs, happy moments, and joy. 

Many people think getting married young and so soon was a mistake. 

Was it hard? Yes. 

Was it worth it? 100x yes. 

He has made me so happy. I have gotten so much better at being patient and understanding and putting myself in his shoes. And I have learned how to be loved. I feel so blessed with everyhring Heavenly Father has been teaching me and blessing me with. 

Now the big question. 

Are you going to drink? No. 

Do you miss drinking? No not at all really. 

I like being in control of my actions and thoughts. I like keeping the commandments and pleasing Heavenly Father. I like preparing my body to a good mommy and wife. I like being SOBER. 

Am I waisting my young twenties? I don’t think so. 

Do I wish I would of “lived” more? No I think I haven’t really lived until now. 

I’m finally happy. 

And I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father. 

Xoxo